As is my morning tradition when I can’t sleep I walked to the Dennys a couple of blocks away for a few cups of java and some conversation with the very early morning crowd of Roswaliens. The coffee is ok and the ambiance is plastic but I love the graveyard waitress and the mentally handicapped busboy. I am considered one of the regulars there and have become friendly with quite a few of the regular morning coffee drinkers over the past year and a half. Farm hands and construction workers. The folks who are changing shifts at the nearby hospital and truckdrivers getting ready for the days grind. Lots of salt of the earth regular folks. Needles to say diverse on their outlook on life and politics. Good folks all of them. Most are friendly and fun but there are some who are just cranky, no matter what the topic of the moment is. One of the cranky guys is Steve.
Steve is a devout Christian and Marine veteran, a lifer who was forced out after 25 years and a knee injury. He is my age, just turned 50 in January, and as such he never saw combat during his military career. Just a bit too young for Viet Nam and too old for any of the Afghanistan/Iraq wars. Even so he is a blind patriot to the Bush administrations definitions of what a patriot is. Supporting the administrations policies without question is how he supports our troops and country. One of the less than 30% who still give Bush a thumbs up. “America, Right or Wrong”, is his creedo.
The counter conversation turned to the mistreatment of returning war vets who are being ignored by the Veterans Administration and the government. Jay, a dairy farmer and Korea War veteran, and I were talking when Steve interrupted us with his crap about how those who don’t support the presidents policies are the ones who truly don’t support the troops. If we questioned the administration then we were wishing harm to the soldiers. That kind of bullshit….you know the rap. He told me, “You aren’t an American”.
Jay, who is quiet and non confrontational, got silent and turned away. Not saying anything we could tell that he was angry. Jessie, our waitress, laughed and teased him about how his ears were turning red. He tried to smile and fall into conversation with her. About the coffee and how it seemed different than when he first started going to Dennys. They both knew that Steve’s comment would not be taken well by this old longhaired “hippie’. They knew that a trucker who carried supplies to keep this country running wouldn’t have his patriotism attacked. They know the difference between how I feel about this war I despise and the soldiers whom I respect and love. How I want to keep exposing the lies that got our troops into the war and how each soldier who is wounded or killed because of those lies hurts me personally. They fell quiet while I boiled inside.
The words accusing me of not being a patriot burned in my head. Telling me that my beliefs and opinions made me less of an American than he was burned in my heart…and stomach. Then I got mad. What Jessie and Jay were sure was coming actually did. I started in on Steve starting with how questioning the governments tyranny was the first American patrioticic act. Folks tired of the way they were being governed took up arms and fought, some dying, for their desire to be free.
Questioning the leaders has always been a way of life in The United States. Demanding the government, that we pay for, to be accountable is the noblest part of being a patriotic American, and our duty. Over the years the people have made great changes because of their speaking against policies and laws. 200 plus years ago the people achieved freedom from an outside government by fighting for the populations desires. 150 years ago slavery was made illegal because the people questioned. In the 20th century many voices got louder and made the government change laws that gave more “equal” rights to the people of our land. People marching in the streets, voicing their dissatisfaction with the leaders, got things done. Women got to vote because they voiced their questions. People of color became a strong voice, questioning. When the American people finally had enough they screamed their dissent from the streets and ended the Viet Nam war. No 100 year occupation because the people wouldn’t allow it.
I continued my heated rant by telling him that the man he worships as God was a patriot as well. Jesus Christ was killed by the government in his land because he spoke out against the way they were treating his people. They gave him a trial and sentenced him to death. Because he was strong enough to question the government.
I was feeling conspicuous because my indignancy was making my voice raise. I got quiet for a moment then reached for my jacket. Steve didn’t say anything as I put the tip next to my half finished cup of coffee. Everyone around was silent. I almost felt bad for scolding this man in front of so many folks. He looked at Jessie and told her to put my coffee on his tab. Thanking him I turned to leave. I realized this was his way of apologizing for accusing me of being un-American. Instead of walking away I felt I needed to make one thing sure. I turned back and looked him in the eye. Calmly I told him what I tell anyone who questions me and my vocal opinion of the way the VA and Pentagon are treating the troops.
“Never say I am not a patriot. Because I question I am a true American.”
I turned and walked out knowing that the next time I see him we will be friendly again.
All is well in my part Roswell.